Why I’m Sharing My Journey Now

Velarion Light Journal Entry 6

When my awakening first cracked open, I had no idea what I was walking into.

No roadmap.
No mentor.
No language for what I was experiencing.
Just symptoms, signs, sensations, synchronicities, and a world that suddenly felt louder, deeper, and sharper than anything I’d ever known.

I tried to understand it.
I tried to find guidance.
And instead, I found a maze:

-bad advice
-spiritual bypassing
-people who projected their own fears as “truth”

-teachers who sounded wise but didn’t have lived experience
-endless contradictions
-gatekeeping masked as enlightenment
-and “gurus” who had never walked through real shadows or real awakening

For a long time, I thought the problem was me.
That I wasn’t “far enough” or “good enough” or “aligned enough” to understand.

But now, twenty years into this path…
after awakenings, walk-ins, soul fractures, initiations, timelines collapsing, clearing ancestral threads, and rebuilding myself more times than I can count…

I finally understand:

It wasn’t me.
The spiritual world was (and still is) full of noise.

People repeating things they’ve never lived.
People teaching concepts they don’t embody.
People giving advice that collapses the moment real trauma or real awakening hits.

And so many people — people like I used to be — searching desperately for truth, clarity, support, and direction…
only to be met with confu
sion or spiritual clichés that don’t actually help.

That’s why I’m using this platform now.

Not to pretend I know everything.
Not to claim perfection or mastery.
But to share the truth I’ve learned through actual experience:

🜂 What it feels like to face death and awaken spiritually at the same time
🜂 What it’s like to navigate awakening alone with four young children
🜂 What real shadow work looks like
🜂 What spiritual trauma actually is
🜂 How to tell the difference between intuition and fear
🜂 How to recognize false guidance
🜂 How to reclaim your power
🜂 How to understand your soul in a grounded, human way
🜂 And how to walk a spiritual path without losing yourself

I’m here to educate —
gently, honestly, and without the spiritual fluff that leads people in circles.

I’m here because no one explained it to me.
And I promised myself that someday…
when I finally understood what was happening to me…
I would make sure other people had a place to land.

A place where truth and experience come before ego.

A place built on clarity, not confusion.
Embodiment, not performance.
Truth, not theatrics.

This platform is that place.

My journey may have started in chaos, fear, and confusion…
but sharing it now is part of my purpose.

And I hope it helps someone else feel less alone,
less overwhelmed,
and more empowered on their own path.

-Cassia